To Be or Not To Be

To be or not to be - thats the problem.

Monday,Tuesday and Wednesday, most of the contributors will not be around[i think all of us]

So the blog will be in silent mode unless our lovely Elmira would like to contribute something.

Thats all for today.

bye.

ex.

Hello~

I think this is like my 2nd post in this blog.

My life since leaving RM has been... so-so. Maybe only for this week kot, sebab I will only officially start working with Kusa (my hubby) at Subway next week. And there's not much paperwork to do pun now at the shop, since we've pretty much covered everything for the month.

I believe its due to the pregnancy, but I don't feel like doing anything nowadays, but at the same time I know I can't sit around the house and do nothing. I get tired soooo very easily, and I take naps in the evening because of that, which always always causes a headache when I wake up.

So now if anyone were to ask what do I miss most about working at RM, I would say 'not being idle all the time'.

Well, here's hoping that things will be better from next week onwards.

So. How are things in the office since I'm not around? Miss me much? :P

I Haytch You!

I Haytch You when you ignore me..

I Haytch You when you're not around..

I Haytch You when didnt talk to me...

I Haytch You when you on the ground...

I Haytch You when didnt feel me..

I Haytch You when you left me...

I Haytch You when I dont see you laughing..

I Haytch You when you feel down...

Feel down with me, cry with me...

Always be here to be with you...

And I Really Haytch You when I cant see you but only can feel you....

Yeah, I Haytch You.....

Goodbye Elmira

Hari ini pergilah seorang lagi kawan kami dari company ini...
Elmira Azlan....ye, ini blur punye budak akan meninggalkan kami hari ini...
Dia akan meneruskan kehidupan dengan lembaran baru...
Tiada lagi gelak tawa dan muka blur dia...

So dengan ini saya nak cakap,all the best El...
we"ll miss you.....
Jangan lupa kami disini..
Semoga sukses dengan kerjaya baru anda di Zimbabwe nanti...
rajin rajinla email or join this blog...

Baik2 duduk tempat orang...occay.

bye....

Aku, Kami, Mereka..Tekezut

Adakah apa yg didengari yang dilihat sebentar tadi benar. Atau Jarr, Kader dan aku cuma mengalami halusinasi akibat kekurangan sales.

Sebentar tadi kedengaran En.Charles bersuara dan bekata-kata dengan Dhana. Namun apa yang kedengaran adalah................................Charles berbicara didalam bahasa tamil. Apa? Charles berbicara dalam bahasa tamil.

Kami bertiga terkesima mendengar kan apa yg berlaku. Mungkin Charles sudah mula membuat koleksi filem2 Kamal Hasan, Rajnikandh atau MGR. Aku tak tau. Hanya Charles sahaja yang tau. Ataupun Charles kini sedang mengkaji epik Ramayana&Mahabrata........

Apa selepas ini Charles akan kerap ke panggung REX atau Colleseum untuk menonton filem2 tamil yg panas2? Itu pun aku tak peduli.

Atau Charles sudah ketemui sareke yg mantap di Jln kasipillay.......mungkin juga. Sepeninggalan Indran dr tempat itu memberi lembaran baru dan peluang untuk Charles bermaharajalela di ceruk2 jalan ipoh. Bestotel sudah menjadi kawasan takluk Charles....

Tidak mustahil selepas ini boleh kita dengar lagu Suranggeni dr telefon bimbit Charles.......sama2 la kita nanti kan.......Venikem...

Fuck Off

Fuck off,
I don't need you.
My hearts bursting,
and you're making it worse.

50 thousand tears I've cried,
my screams go mute in the darkness,
no one hears me,
no one can help me.

Fuck off,
I don't need you.
My hearts bursting,
and you're making it worse.

You don't understand,
your obnoxious behaviour is ripping me to pieces.
Fuck off,
and leave me to myself.

~ kiriman ini tiada kena mengena dgn hidup atau pn mati. kebetulan terjumpa kt google~

Rasa yang tak best

hari ni aku rasa x best
hari2 aku rasa x best....macam haram
esok aku rasa x best gak ke
lusa rasa x best gak ke

semalam rasa best
tapi rasa best tu kejap
selebih nyer jadi tak best
so bila yang bleh rasa best

pegi keje rasa x best
pg makan lauk x best
masuk keje ngantuk...x best gak tu
balik umah..hmmm best ke

asyik nk cari yg best
yg x best nk campak mana
dh padan muka aku seme dpt x best
ni yg x best ni

Bestnye Dia Ni Tido

Tadi pagi aku tengok ini budak macam best plak dia ketidoran...
So masa bangun tido, aku pon join tido sebelah dia jap sebelum mandi...
pastu dia siap sengih sengih masa tido...
Mimpi main kot....hahahahahahaha.....

Yay!Its Friday....
Tapi arini last day Elmira....oh sedehnya...
sorang sorang dah blah dari ini company...

:(

Nombot 10

Ini posting aku yg ke 10. Ntah aopa yg kena kt aku hari tak tau la. Blog aku sendiri pun x pernah aku post spai 10 dlm sehari.....Sewel dh melanda jiwa.

Depan aku ada Charles. Chales lak wat muka skemeimei hari....weeks

Seblah aku ada Kader.....Kader mcm biasa..kuduku blur...

Seblah kader ada Jarr...Jarr mmg poyo kaler PINK

Belakang aku ada Indie@macha@Arang batu..........Bohsia...jgn pilih jalan Indran

Kt belah sana ada Nik, Najib, Yazid n Zabidi......seme POYO kecuali Zabidi. Zabidi otai rck kapak...ntah la. Kapak emas ke kapak karat.

Dalam bilik tertutup ada bos 2 org...kekodut 2-2 tu.....blah la weiiii.

Kejap lagi pukul 6 ptg..aku bleh balik...ahahaha...poyoduction n editorial x leh balik lg...padan muka kau. Dok opis spai malam.......mlm jumaat lak tu.....ada kliwon...huhuhu

1 minggu ada 1 hari Jumaat
1 bulan ada 4 hari Jumaat
1 tahun ada 48 hari Jumaat.....
jadi jgn di sia2 kan mlm jumaat itu, kelak nyesal nanti......

abis keje aku nk balik umah, sblm spai umah aku kene pandu kerete. sblm pandu kerete aku kene amik lift turun pg parking level 2. Celaka...ada 4 lift jek g level 2.....spai kt kete kene seluk poket amik kunci kete pas tu kene tekan button alarm. pastu kene bukak pintu pas tu kene duduk dlm kete. lps duduk kene cucuk kunci ke tempat kunci n start injin kete...bkn injin carian yek. Lps injin hidup kene tekan klas dan masuk gear 1........oittt sudah laaaa...penat mau taip......

Bodo nieee

PANCUT
Ayg: bang, goncang sikit2 dah la. nanti terpancut!
Abg: pancut bru best
Ayg: dahla, nanti habis basah
Abg: takpe, abang try bukak pelan2.
Ayg: nanti habis melekit
Abg: syg jgn bimbang, air coca-cola je ni.


KENTUT
org Amerika kentut cakap EXCUSE ME
org British kentut cakap PARDON ME
org Singapore kentut cakap FORGIVE ME
org kita kentut cakap NOT ME! NOT ME!


CONDOM vs KOTEX
Condom: Bullshit u! every month u stop my business for 1 week! Damn!
Kotex: Aaaaahhhhh!! if u make 1 single mistake, i'll lose my business for9 months!


SABAH
pergi sabah naik basikal,
naik basikal pergi ke sabah,
ade ke munasabah & masuk akal,
nak pergi sabah naik basikal?
memang tak masuk akal! thoing!


WARNING!!
children playing outside the car
can cause accident.
adult playing inside the car
can cause children!


SETEM
pos malaysia akan mengeluarkan setem gambar KEMALUAN lelaki. ini mengelirukan kaum wanita, bahagian mana yg perlu dijilat depan ke belakang?


4 KEISTIMEWAAN WANITA
1-berdarah tiap2 bulan tapi tak mati2
2-hidang susu fresh tanpa pergi kekedai
3-mengeraskan hot dog tanpa peti sejuk
4-ditikam bertubi2 tapi tak mati2


SWEET
a lollipop said to a chocolate 'Damn we're sooo sweeeet!'
the chocolate replied 'Sweet? u should see the person who send this massage. fuh, lagi sweet!'
Fewiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt

Mati Hidup Kembali

Jalan raya terlampau sunyi
Untuk ku terus bermimpi
Mataku belum mengantuk lagi
Bawa ke mana sahaja kupergi

Tunjukkan ku bulan gerhana
Tiada siapa nak kujumpa
Pendirian tiada kusangka
Tak mengapa oh tak mengapa

Malam semalam gundah gulana
Hari ini hari mulia
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali

Bawakan kuhilang dari ingatan
Hari ini sehingga esok
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali

Agar sepenuh dengan pendirian
Kucapai sebelah tangan
Sebalik awan ada cahaya
Bercahayalah selamanya

Daku tertawa seorang diri
Darah yang mengalir terhenti
Fikiranku melayang-layang
Tiada siapa yang perasan

hati derita, hidung tersiksa

hari ni jiwa kacau. Nak kata tak amik ubat...tak de la plak aku ni kena makan ubat. Mungkin tahap mukus didalam idung kau yg semakin memekat langsung membataskan tahap pemikiran emas aku. Dah beribu kali aku hembus..warna nya hija-kuning, pekat.....masih ada lagi di corong hidung ku. Entah sampai bila mau abis ini mukus daaaa. Sekarang aku telah menyumbat kan vicks ke corong hidung aku agar dapat aku rasa kan kedamaian pernafasan. Ku hidu, ku bau, ku sedut...tatkala ku cabut dr corong hidung rasa yg x damai itu kembali menjelma...arghhhh...sungguh aku tak suka jadi sebegini.

Seminggu yang lepas mukus di corong hidung ku ini amat cair dah leleh-lelehan nyer membuat kan aku bersin x semena-mena...arghhh...tak suka laaa....mau aja aku makan ubat agar semua ni berhenti. tapi apa kan daya...aku tak kemampuan untuk menjengah kan diri ke rumah sakit akibat sindrom malas....

Kini aku terpaksa meneruskan aktiviti menghembus sisa-sisa mukus pekat yg tersangkut di corong hidung mancung ku ini. tapi sampai bila?...Aku sudah letih menghembus, penat sudah diafragma aku mengumpul kan tenaga agar hembusan aku betul2 berhasil. kembang kuncup paru2 aku menghasil kan tenaga hembusan...Lihat.....aku sudah rasa kan yg mukus2 pekat ini sudah bermaharajalela di corong hidung ku kembali. arghhhh..aku mesti berbuat sesuatu agar ketenangan yang sudah lama ku impikan itu bertaut kembali.

Aku sudah membuat keputusan. Aku mesti ke toilet sekarang untuk menghembus saki baki mukus pekat durjana ini. sesudah itu aku mahu mengamal kan teknik pernafasan dalam....alat bantuan pernafasan ku sudah memanggil-manggil bibir mongel aku agar ku kucup dan ku sedut......marlboro lights....lets go together.....

Pantun

tensen keje jgn membentak
susah la keje jadi kuli
kau suka ke tak
apa aku pedulik....

Dooms Day Out - Pegi mati daaa

Either i'm sick or purified
Acidity or jealousy
I needen't wanna be complete
Retarded cause it's part of the...

And suddenly i realize
For all the things I' read and buy
Will never got slip mind hide
Will never ever slip away

Oh will i lost my mind ?
And never realize it why...
I will lost my mind
Suck

I'm sick and tired of these lies
For all the part which you can find
A little mature is all we need... need !
To soothe and run there's no way

I will lost my mind
And make a while to fanatize
I will not smile
Suck

Hey... u wanna... hey... yeah...
I will not smile
And never ask to me why
I will not smile
And make a while to fanatize...
I will not smile
And never realize it why
I will not smile...
Suck

kalau nak tau dia mmg asal dr situ

Kalau nak tau seseorang tu mmg asal dr sesuatu tempat...ini ada tips.....

1. kalau org Melaka cuba suruh dia sebut seluar dlm bahasa melaka..........kalau jwp seluwau....ok lg. Tp kalau jwp sulau...sah kompom lahabau....
2. Negeri 9...suruh dia sebut hari selasa......kalo sebut Solaso.....kata kan aje..Abah kauuu...jwpn yg betul ada la SALASA
3. Kalau org Perlis...suruh sebut Lutut or Pulut.....pastikan jwpn nyer...lutuit or Puluit. perelis ni mesti ada uit2 sket.
4. Kalau org Kedah cuba tanya apa diorang sebut basikal......kalau dia kata bicycle.....hang kata aja.....nak kena tanggalung??....jwpn yg betul....Gerek......
5. Kalau org pantai timur (kelantan n t'ganu) suruh dia baca ayat ni...I dont understand anything....sebutannya mestilah...i dong andeseteng sepatoh hare.....

takat sini aja utk hari ni...len kali aku bg lagi.......kalo ngaku org KL.....camna nk sebut Kuala Lumpur.....

Serabai @ Kuih Serabai

Serabai.....sejenis kuih yg jarang2 di makan kalau di negeri Melaka.

Kuih Serabai biasanya boleh didapati di majlis atau kenduri arwah sekitar Melaka. Kalau ada berkaitan dgn serabai maknanya ada la org mati.

Contoh ayat , "weoiii...ni bwk moto laju2...ada yg jamu serabai jap lg"...maknanya mmg nak mampus la tu.

Kalau yg biasa dgn org2 Melaka mesti tahu bende2 ni semua......pegi la mampos...

Sepahawau ler

silky coloured
will you love me? Suck!!
silky coloures
will you leave me ?
Silky coloured
indecision....Go!!!
silky coloured
cause i'm a patienttt...

Kuduku, Ngok, Lahabau

Ntah apa ntah aku nak ngarut kt sini...lantak la. Ada aku kesah. Kalau nak nyumpah rasanya dh puas nyumpah. Nak maki dah puas maki.....nk bunuh orang...opsss tak brani lg.

Itu la saja cetusan rasa untuk hari ni. Makaseeehhhhhhhh......

Hallucination/Halusinasi

A hallucination, in the broadest sense, is a perception in the absence of a stimulus. In a stricter sense, hallucinations are defined as perceptions in a conscious and awake state in the absence of external stimuli which have qualities of real perception, in that they are vivid, substantial, and located in external objective space. The latter definition distinguishes hallucinations from the related phenomena of dreaming, which does not involve wakefulness; illusion, which involves distorted or misinterpreted real perception; imagery, which does not mimic real perception and is under voluntary control; and pseudohallucination, which does not mimic real perception, but is not under voluntary control.[1] Hallucinations also differ from "delusional perceptions", in which a correctly sensed and interpreted genuine perception is given some additional (and typically bizarre) significance.

Hallucinations can occur in any sensory modality — visual, auditory, olfactory, gustatory, tactile, proprioceptive, equilibrioceptive, nociceptive, and thermoceptive.

A mild form of hallucination is known as a disturbance, and can occur in any of the senses above. These may be things like seeing movement in peripheral vision, or hearing faint noises and voices.

Hypnagogic hallucinations and hypnopompic hallucinations are considered normal phenomena. Hypnagogic hallucinations can occur as one is falling asleep and hypnopompic hallucinations occur when one is waking up.

Hallucinations can also be associated with drug or alcohol use (particularly deliriants), sleep deprivation, psychosis, neurological disorders, and delirium tremens.



Prevalence

Studies have shown that hallucinatory experiences take place worldwide. One study from as early as 1894[2] reported that approximately 10% of the population experienced hallucinations. A 1996-1999 survey of over 13,000 people[3] reported a much higher figure, with almost 39% of people reporting hallucinatory experiences, 27% of which were daytime hallucinations, mostly outside the context of illness or drug use. From this survey, olfactory (smell) and gustatory (taste) hallucinations seem the most common in the general population.

Types of hallucinations

Hallucinations may be manifested in a variety of forms.[4] Various forms of hallucinations affect the different senses, sometimes occurring simultaneously, creating multiple sensory hallucinations for the patient.

[edit] Auditory hallucinations

Auditory hallucinations (also known as Paracusia),[5] particularly of one or more talking voices, are particularly associated with psychotic disorders such as schizophrenia or mania, and hold special significance in diagnosing these conditions, although many people not suffering from diagnosable mental illness may sometimes hear voices as well.[6] The Hearing Voices Movement is a support and advocacy group for people who hallucinate voices, but do not otherwise show signs of mental illness or impairment.

Other types of auditory hallucination include exploding head syndrome and musical ear syndrome. In the latter, people will hear music playing in their mind, usually songs they are familiar with. Recent reports have also mentioned that it is also possible to get musical hallucinations from listening to music for long periods of time. [7] This can be caused by: lesions on the brain stem (often resulting from a stroke); also, tumors, encephalitis, or abscesses.[8] Other reasons include hearing loss and epileptic activity.[9] Auditory hallucinations are also a result of attempting a Wake-initiation of lucid dreams (WILD) which is a way people try to put themselves into a Lucid Dream.

[edit] Olfactory hallucinations

Phantosmia is the phenomenon of smelling odors that aren't really present. The most common odors are unpleasant smells such as rotting flesh, vomit, urine, feces, smoke, etc. Phantosmia often results from damage to the nervous tissue in the olfactory system. The damage can be caused by viral infection, brain tumor, trauma, surgery, and possibly exposure to toxins or drugs.[10] Phantosmia can also be induced by epilepsy affecting the olfactory cortex and is also thought to possibly have psychiatric origins.[citation needed] Phantosmia is different from parosmia, in which a smell is actually present, but perceived differently from its usual smell.

[edit] Hypnagogic hallucination
Main article: Hypnagogia

These hallucinations occur just before falling asleep, and affect a surprisingly high proportion of the population. The hallucinations can last from seconds to minutes, all the while the subject usually remains aware of the true nature of the images. These are usually associated with narcolepsy, but can also affect normal minds. Hypnagogic hallucinations are sometimes associated with brainstem abnormalities, but this is rare.[11]

[edit] Peduncular hallucinosis
Main article: Peduncular hallucinosis

Peduncular means pertaining to the peduncle, which is a neural tract running to and from the pons on the brain stem. These hallucinations usually occur in the evenings, but not during drowsiness, as in the case of hypnagogic hallucination. The subject is usually fully conscious and can interact with the hallucinatory characters for extended periods of time. As in the case of hypnagogic hallucinations, insight into the nature of the images remains intact. The false images can occur in any part of the visual field, and are rarely polymodal.[11]

[edit] Delirium tremens
Main article: Delirium tremens

One of the more enigmatic forms of visual hallucination is the highly variable, possibly polymodal delirium tremens. Individuals suffering from delirium tremens may be agitated and confused, especially in the later stages of this disease. Insight is gradually reduced with the progression of this disorder. Sleep is disturbed and occurs for a shorter period of time, with REM overflow.[11]

[edit] Parkinson's disease and Lewy body dementia

Parkinson's disease is linked with Lewy body dementia for their similar hallucinatory symptoms. The symptoms strike during the evening in any part of the visual field, and are rarely polymodal. The segue into hallucination may begin with illusions[12] where sensory perception is greatly distorted, but no novel sensory information is present. These typically last for several minutes, during which time the subject may be either conscious and normal or drowsy/inaccessible. Insight into these hallucinations is usually preserved and REM sleep is usually reduced. Parkinson's disease is usually associated with a degraded substantia nigra pars compacta, but recent evidence suggests that PD affects a number of sites in the brain. Some places of noted degradation include the median raphe nuclei, the noradrenergic parts of the locus coeruleus, and the cholinergic neurons in the parabrachial and pedunculopontine nuclei of the tegmentum.[11]

[edit] Migraine coma

This type of hallucination is usually experienced during the recovery from a comatose state. The migraine coma can last for up to two days, and a state of depression is sometimes comorbid. The hallucinations occur during states of full consciousness, and insight into the hallucinatory nature of the images is preserved. It has been noted that ataxic lesions accompany the migraine coma.[11]

[edit] Charles Bonnet syndrome

Charles Bonnet syndrome is the name given to visual hallucinations experienced by blind patients. The hallucinations can usually be dispersed by opening or closing the eyelids until the visual images disappear. The hallucinations usually occur during the morning or evening, but are not dependent on low light conditions. These prolonged hallucinations usually do not disturb the patients very much, as they are aware that they are hallucinating.[11] A differential diagnosis are opthalmopathic hallucinations [13].

[edit] Focal epilepsy

The visual hallucinations from focal epilepsy are characterized by being brief and stereotyped. They are usually localized to one part of the visual field, and last only a few seconds. Other epileptic features may present themselves between visual episodes. Consciousness is usually impaired in some way, but nevertheless, insight into the hallucination is preserved. Usually, this type of focal epilepsy is caused by a lesion in the posterior temporoparietal.[11]

[edit] Tactile hallucinations

Other types of hallucinations create the sensation of tactile sensory input, simulating various types of pressure to the skin or other organs. This type of hallucination is often associated with substance use, such as someone who feels bugs crawling on them (known as formication) after a prolonged period of cocaine or amphetamine use.[14]

[edit] Scientific explanations

Various theories have been put forward to explain the occurrence of hallucinations. When psychodynamic (Freudian) theories were popular in psychiatry, hallucinations were seen as a projection of unconscious wishes, thoughts and wants. As biological theories have become orthodox, hallucinations are more often thought of (by psychologists at least) as being caused by functional deficits in the brain. With reference to mental illness, the function (or dysfunction) of the neurotransmitters glutamate and dopamine are thought to be particularly important.[15] The Freudian interpretation may have an aspect of truth, as the biological hypothesis explains the physical interactions in the brain, while the Freudian deals with the origin of the flavor of the hallucination. Psychological research has argued that hallucinations may result from biases in what are known as metacognitive abilities.[16] These are abilities that allow us to monitor or draw inferences from our own internal psychological states (such as intentions, memories, beliefs and thoughts). The ability to discriminate between internal (self-generated) and external (stimuli) sources of information is considered to be an important metacognitive skill, but one which may break down to cause hallucinatory experiences. Projection of an internal state (or a person's own reaction to another's) may arise in the form of hallucinations, especially auditory hallucinations. A recent hypothesis that is gaining acceptance concerns the role of overactive top-down processing, or strong perceptual expectations, that can generate spontaneous perceptual output (that is, hallucination).[17]

Lunch

Met her for lunch..
Tak banyak berubah unless on "that" part....ahha!
tak banyak cakap,just pasal kawan2 lama and memories...
sweet girl..as usual la kan..
orang sekeliling tgk,maybe dorang rasa apehal mamat huduh makan ngan angel nih?
lantakla kan...kawan aku..bukan kawan dorang...
ade aku kisah?cak cak cak.....

the rest.....do i have to tell all the things to you guys?
:)

She's Back

Dia dah sampai...dah sms dan call aku pon pagi tadi...
And arini dia nak lunch...apekelancau!
Dan seperti biasa aku memberi reason yg aku ade lunch appointment arini...
Pastu dia nak minum petang plak...kat klcc.
aku ckp aku malas nak minum sebab nak amik anak la kat nursery...
then dia ckp, how about dinner?

eeeiiii....tak paham2 ke dia ni?[ni hati aku la kata]
nak kata direct to her face tak sampai hati...
dinner lagila tak bleh...aku ckp,ok tapi aku bawak Mem sekali boleh?
dia ckp bwkla...tapi kalau dia mesra2 ngan aku, Mem jangan jealous ok?
Perghhhhhhhhhhhh.......hell to the no!
nak mamposs?

even my cousin hugged me pon dia dah jealous[read as damn hot cousin]
inikan plak Shasha?better jangan la ye...
So my conversation with her earlier this morning,

Shasha: Hey jarr,morning dear.

Aku:haa..morning...kul brape sampai?

Shasha:Semalam kul 10.today lunch?

Aku:0o0o0o0o....lunch?ala, aku ade lunch appointment la Sha...

Shasha:hmm..ok.How about after work,KLCC?

Aku:nak amik anak kat Nursery,lambat2 kang kena charge lebeh plak.

Shasha:You ni kan............ok, no negotiable,dinner!

Aku:haha...lagila takleh...okla, aku bawak Mem sekali ok?

Shasha:Hmm..i dont mind, as long dia tak jealous kalau i manja2 ngan you?

Aku:[Gulp]........hoho...tak bley...tak bley....

Shasha:Then,when I can meet you?

Aku: Nantila Sha,you pon baru sampai...have a good rest...then baru la roger kawan2 lama kita.pastu kita wat gath.

Shasha:that would be the last thing in my list,1st,when can we meet up?

Aku:tengokla Sha....kalau aku free nanti aku inform kau ok.

Shasha:shit excuse.........i'll be around KL today,mostly KLCC...gimme a call if you nearby or else i'll find you!

Aku:ha'ah....insyaAllah.Bye...

Shasha:Bye....


p/s:hadoi...camno nih...takkan nak antar charles pergi, kang die suspect ketinggian tak sama,kulit gelap boleh cerita lagi.kalau indie lagila fail,nanti dia cari2 aku sampai malam tak jumpa...haih......


bersambung....................................

History

A lil bit story pasal Shasha...
Aku kenal Shasha masa dia abis sekolah kat Sri Inai...
So kawan2 dia semua click2 aku jugak...
Its all start masa abg aku bawak aku gi cuti kat club med..
abg aku nak bercuti ngan gepren dia, so gepren dia bawak la budak2 ni semua..
from there we become geng2 sengal...

And Shasha close giler ngan aku...
So start dari situ la kami rapat dan rapat dan rapat sampai melekat..
And pasal 8 tahun lepas tuh,she cheated me...behind me actually..
with MY BEST FRIEND....yeah,my fucking best friend...
I was away that time...masa tuh kat Brunei,pasal ade show...[i was working with my uncle event company]

So member2 kat backroom called me and told me she's kissing with my best friend..
aku mcm bese la malas nak amik port...sebab tak nampak ngan mata sendiri kan.
So balik KL mcm biasa...then one day kena kantoi with me...
[and i dont have to tell you guys what was actually happened]...
i forgive her and left her...but still kawan mcm biasa..

then she flew to Philippine with her family...then i tatau ape citer...until today when i answer her call.thats the short story of her[i think].

so now she's back for good...i dont have any problem since i dont have any feelings to her...just glad dengar dia ok whatsoever..but when she gave me that statement..
aku macam malas nak pikir...so pendapat aku is, abaikan dia.

As a friend,occay.More than that,fuck off.

How about that?:)

Are You for Real?

Perbualan 2 sahabat lama,

Aku: Weii Shasha,where have you been?Lama tak dengar citer.Tetiba call aku,mana u dapat nombor?

Shasha: i got it from Iman,dia kasik i.You sihat?

Aku: aku mcm bese arr Sha...camni la, maintain kecik.

Shasha:Well,good for you...actually tomorrow i balik M'sia...balik for good.So I nak lepak balik ngan kawan2 lama,especially you.

Aku: erkk...balik sini?bagusla...kau nak kerja sini ke?or just balik nak menghabiskan masa ngan family?

Shasha:I kalau boleh nak kerja...and settle down kat M'sia jer...

Aku: Haa..bagusla...balik sini,kawen jer org sini...ko pon org mesia apa...lainla surat beranak kau tulih Burkina Faso.

Shasha:haha...you ni dulu ngan skang samaaa jer...melawak tak abis2...

Aku:camne ko kenal aku 8 years ago, camtu la aku skang Sha....beza cuma aku dah anak sorang...ngan bini baru sorang...haha.

Shasha:you're lucky la Jarr....actually i nak minta maaf for the things i've done to you 8 years ago...really really sorry...

Aku: erkkk...takde papela Sha...aku dah lama dah lupa benda tuh...ko rileks arr..aku ok jer...

Shasha:thanks,but can we get back just like the old days?please.........

Aku:ish...hahaha...ko ni,ko nak suruh aku amik ko jadik bini nombor 2 ke Sha?hahaha..

Shasha:kalau dah mcm tu takdir dia,i'm willing to....

Aku:...............................................................


bersambung....


ni la makhluk yg bernama Shasha.

SombongNye......

Aku: Eh sombong arr dia tuh...

Hati aku:eh mandai jer ko ckp org sombong..dia tgh problem kot.

Aku:ade aku kesah?cak cak cak cak...

Hati aku:kalau tak kisah,then jgnla ckp pape...ni ko ckp mcm ko concern.

Aku:owh ye eh?saje je aku wondering.

Hati aku:takyah nak wondering wondering sangatlah...buat hal kau sudah...

Aku:Kan?hmmm..ok2,aku wat hal aku...tak mati pon kalau tak ckp ngan org sombong...

Hati aku:tau takpe,dah pi wat kerja.

Aku:skarang ke?

Hati aku:dah tu?bila ko nak gi wat kerja?Lusa?

Aku:ok2...aku cam blur la lately.

Hati aku:bukan lately jer...ari2,tiap2 pagi...skang lagi teruk..tengahari sampai petang....tak ke bangang namanya tuh?

Aku:owhhh ye ke?maaf la...



sekian conversation aku dan hati aku arini - ahha!

mood sakit

arghh fck! siapa yang bawa virus ini? almost half of us sudah terkena jangkitan nya.

saya mahu pulang :(

Numb

Today I feel numb.
Why?

Sebab aircond sejuk giler babi.

Solution?

tunggu la pukul 6.

Reason?

Sebab boleh balik.

Kalau balik hilang ke rasa Numb tuh?

Ha'ah..ilang.


0o0o0o...ok.

hmm...bye.

Fail

All the euphoria about the blog as seen last week has died off yeah....
:)

Fuck Is My Middle Name

Just went out from the meeting.
Lately the business gone bad and boss getting on my nerves.
I dont mind to swallow any single fuck from him...
But sometimes "fuck" becomes annoying to me..

I understand boss mad at me due to the bad performance.
Somehow, we need to consider the cause.
Why - when - what - how.

this fucking four typical question playing on my mind.
Until when i will tolerate with this situation.
Why the business getting bad...
What I can do to fix it...and how i'm going to survive?
Desperate to get business until I feel we're like begging client for their money..
Yeah..that what supposed we do, but in a professional way - of course.

we have to expect NO from 'em.Out of 100 there could be 99 Nos.
and ONE fucking YES from them.Lucky me.
And to get that fucking YES will be the biggest challenge.
Thats what sales people have to face.
People said, a good sales person can even sell a fridge to eskimos.

Yes,but im not at the Artic for god sake.Well, in any situation,i still have to admit my weakness in doing sales.Not all gifted to do this.
Good sales people earned a good paycheck every month.
and so do us - i guess - true ah charles?

Point of this posting? - Nothing -
Just my 2 cents.

taa.

Mel's PC

This is what happen kalau lama sangat tinggal PC anda...
Nanti jadi tempat persinggahan "hantu - hantu" yg merindui anda...
Sila ambil iktibar ye kawan2.....
Kalau tambah lagi seminggu mesti ade pokok2 bunga or rumput...
haha.

Happy Monday!

Happy Monday!!!!Ya

Yeeeeaaaaaayyyyy!!!....Guess everyone is happy and excited to be back to the office ...and its MONDAY...the best day of the week......chill and enjoy!!!!!

Yaaahhhoooooooo!!!!!.......

FUck Me

tips interview dengan saya

don't u ever ask me call u back because ur waiting for others call.

-the end-

Post Your Favourite Quotes or a Liner....

Boys&Girls.....

Its Friday.....and things are slow....and we are feeling lazy...but happy....Friday is special...so i decided on these...Now write down your best quotes from Movies, books or even your Dogs....im sure there are many we can contribute.....the purpose of this , to widely educate ourselves to use more liners and Quotes during our conversations to pick up a chick or to get picked up...

' If it Bleeds, we can Kill it'.

Arnold (Predator)1987

'Bunch of slack-jawed faggots around here. This stuff will make you a god damned sexual Tyrannosaurus, just like me.
Blain (Predator)1987

Good Friday Morning

For you guys...

If you hear a voice in the middle of the night
Say, and it will be all right, it will be me
If you feel a hand guiding you along
When the path seems wrong, it will be me

There is no mountain that i can’t climb
For you i’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way, and i go mine
Our light will shine, and it will be me

If there is a key that goes to your heart
A special heart, it will be me
If you need a friend, call out to the wind
To hold you again, it will be me

Oh, how the world seem so unfair
Creating a love that cannot be shared
As you go your way, and i go mine
Our light will shine, and it will be me

I steal ever after,
There’s a place for two
Hear the old tears of laughter,
I’ll be there for you

In the sun and the moon
In the land and the sea
Look all around you
It will be me

There is no mountain that i can’t climb
For you i’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way, and i go mine
Our light will shine, and it will be me

It will be me, it will be me

Kisah Sedih Saya III

Saya ada kawan tapi kawan saya tak seperti dulu...huhuhu. Mereka selalu buat saya kecik ati. Selalu saya rasa rendah diri walaupun saya tahu saya kekurang paras. Semua yang teribat ada yang bujang dan ada yang berkahwin.

Hati saya bak rama-rama atau pun kupu-kupu. Jiwa metal katard saya kadang kala berwarna PINK. Saya suka mengata tapi kalau terkena pada saya...huh...sangat saya tak sukai. Kenapa suka sangat mereka mengata atau merendah-rendah kan diri saya. Perlu kah saya mendongak untuk menggapai apa yang tak sampai.

Produk Miko-Piko yang ditempah masih belum tiba walaupun sudah lama aku tunggu. Aku sudah letih mendongak. Permainan futsal aku menjadi tidak seronok kerna aku tak boleh menjaringkan gol dengan gaya tandukan.

Semua jeans yang aku beli memberi masalah kepada ku. Aku perlu ke tukang jahit untuk membuat potongan agar tidak terlibat dengan kerja DBKL menyapu jalan. Kalau aku kumpul semua potongan jeans aku, mungkin boleh ku buat lagi 3 pasang jeans.

Akhir sekali, jangan sesekali memadang rendah pada ku. Bongkok kan diri untuk menyamakan paras kita. Baru boleh buat mata bertentangan. Sama paras kan.

Tatkala semua ini aku tulis, hati ku suda menjadi PINK se PINK nya. Aku mahu kawan aku seperti dahulu. Duduk sama rendah. Diri sama tinggi....ehem ehem...sama ke.

Inilah kisah sedih saya....sedih kan?

kisah sedih saya

minggu lepas, telefon tangan saya sudah menunjukkan ciri-ciri hendak mampus. bateri tidak boleh dicas. setelah dibelek dan ditelek, bateri tiada masalah, yang mempunyai masalah ialah telefon tangan itu sendiri. saya sedih :(

hari ini, saya lagi sedih kerana telefon tangan encik suami telah tercicir dikala beliau masuk hutan FRIM. sob sob. ini bermakna, bulan ini wajib membeli dua telefon tangan.

sedih bukan kisah saya? dengan ini saya secara rasminya telah menubuhkan tabung bantuan telefon tangan NIK. kerjasama dari kalian amat saya hargai

saya yang lagi bersedih,
NIK.

It Will Be Me - Melissa Etheridge

Sapa ade lagu ini?
Saya mau.....sangat sedap ini lagu...
From Brother Bear 2 OST....

ALERT:Saya sudah dapat ini lagu,itu Kader sudah kasik.terima kasih kader kuduku.

Thank you.

P/S: A very warm welcome to all contributors Dcob Grungey,Budak Unconscious,Makcik Aiya,Pakcik Shaman,El Blur and the latest contributors,Anak Kucing...happy blogging.

welcome lell

Note** How to block or ban Fuhrer ehh?wakakakakakakakaka

Today Entry

Lately banyak orang sakit kat opis...
Aku tatau siapa pembawa penyakit ni mula - mula...
but i suspect Najib ngan Kader...haha
Mereka berdua ni la pembawa virus penyakit ni kat opis...
So skang aku masih batuk dan flu since saturday...
I hate this flu and cough...tak selesa nak kerja...

Nak batuk kuat2, nanti orang marah....:)
Dah la skang ni orang tgh kecoh swine flu...
tapi korang tau tak yg sebenarnya flu ni tak merbahaya seperti yg media report..
just a normal flu...UNLESS,you already ade penyakit kronik THEN this bloody Swine flu berjangkit dengan you,then you have to take the precaution IMMEDIATELY.

Sapa nak citer pasal Swine flu plak nih...
aku nak cakap pasal benda lain,tapi dah lupa la pulak..
demn!

babai..........


Today Image

the man in the golden casket.

I'm watching the MJ memorial on 8tv right now.

I thought it was sad that we lost a great musician. But its even sadder to know that three children lost their dad.

[So who cares if people say that he's not the real father to them? Being a part of a family goes far beyond just blood relations, me thinks.]

Excuse the sudden burst of emotion.

My darkest secret

I have got a confession to make and I know that this is not going to be easy on your ears and maybe some of you might take it hard to swallow (hmm I like that word) but yes. After years and years of keeping this dark secret in me I have decided that I’m no longer going to hide this anymore. Not going through another day without saying what I actually feel like and want.

Here it goes – the truth is I am a bi. YES a fucking bi. For all those dumb fucks out there who has no idea what a bi is….. please google it. Short way of saying this – I like both guys and girls and the former is really intense in me right now.

So here you go. I have said it and yes intense because I am in love with a guy. Deep, profound love that has overwhelming me for almost 2 years now. I had it in control, I thought I did as always…who would have known anyway but in the end I gave in to the temptation.

I first saw him when I joined this company, RM. Well it’s very hard for him to go unnoticed considering that he’s almost 6 ft tall. When I first saw him in his dark framed glasses, his ‘stick’ like figure, the way he walks and the aura that surrounded him…. I thought to myself who is guy. As days goes by we all went together for lunch, smoke, drinks and everything else I grew closer to him but it was an incident that happened during this time that made me to fall in love with him. It was one of those abusing periods after lunch where my other colleagues will be insinuating me because of my height. This one particular colleague of mine went overboard and it really hurt my heart so much – I’ll never forgive that yellow teeth bitch. It was aching inside of me but they went on and on but I kept myself from doing or saying anything. For me I don’t care how much I get hurt, as long as they have good fun even in the expense of me and my feelings. He knew or he realized the change on my face and when everyone else left to go back into the office, I stayed back to have another cigarette and he stayed on with me. We didn’t utter a single word but his presence there that time was good enough to make me feel better. Then suddenly he placed his hands on my shoulder and he told me not to worry about what they said about me.

Those consoling words were filled with love, encouragement and passion. I melted before it. He stared right into my eyes and told me no matter what my height is or whatever he still likes me. Wait…for a moment I was happy – I was thinking to myself if he meant it as he ‘likes me more than anyone else or a friend’ or he likes me just as a friend. I couldn’t afford to make a mistake – I just smiled back at him looking into his eyes and told him that he means a lot to me. That was when I first fell in love with him.

Days went by and the moments and times we shared together, my love for him only grew stronger and more intense. Of course I didn’t tell him this or to anyone else for that matter. I used to try and get glimpses of him whenever he’s with the rest of the gang, stand beside him whenever I could and that would really make me feel so good, try and get his scent whenever he passes by, walk with him to my car although my wife will be there as well and all the rest. Practically I was deeply in love with him.

At times I used to play with him; poke his sides, hold his hands or grab his you know where and he seems alright with it – like we both reciprocate but I’m still afraid of saying or confessing to him. Maybe he feels the same to me?

Well here you go then…. I still managed to turn behind and look his hanging on to the phone and talking to his clients before I submitted the post. My heart just grew fonder and misses him and we are just separated like less than a meter apart.

I love you Indran….

Sincerely Jar


P/S: CONTRIBUTORS ABUSED THE AUTHORIZATION GIVEN.THIS IS SHAMEFUL,CHARLES,STOP IT.=)).The confession was not from the original author,it was created by someone else who tried to destroy Jarr credibility - ahha

Keynotes

Officially from now on, My Dark Side blog will be our official field to discuss or bitching around about everything.Each of contributors freely can post whatever you want[if porn,then should lemme know earlier - wahahahaha]....

The contributors list will be add on, upon request with strict criteria.You guys can invite anybody that you feel "worth it".Or else, kick em out :D.

In the meantime, please play around with our lovely blog and please do or decorate as you like.Warning!No pink!I repeat,NO PINK!wahahahahahahahaha....

Have a great day!

Tribute to The King!!

One of my favorite....on this memorable day....

They Told Him Don't You Ever Come Around Here
Don't Wanna See Your Face, You Better Disappear
The Fire's In Their Eyes And Their Words Are Really Clear
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[2nd Verse]
You Better Run, You Better Do What You Can
Don't Wanna See No Blood, Don't Be A Macho Man
You Wanna Be Tough, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Show them How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It

[3rd Verse]
They're Out To Get You, Better Leave While You Can
Don't Wanna Be A Boy, You Wanna Be A Man
You Wanna Stay Alive, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[4th Verse]
You Have To Show Them That You're Really Not Scared
You're Playin' With Your Life, This Ain't No Truth Or Dare
They'll Kick You, Then They Beat You,
Then They'll Tell You It's Fair
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It

[Chorus]
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Who's Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It

Objective

The owner of the blog likes boys and indran? wtf? gay blog or what :P

Childhood

. When I was a child I was absolutely sure that God, angels and the rest were people like me, like we all are. They were the same children, that eat, sleep and play, cry and laugh, are anger and happy… With the time this faith was disappearing – they said that I was growing and entering the adult life. Once upon a day I woke up in the morning and realized that all those things I trusted in my childhood are just a myth, illusion… They do not exist. Now I want to look back and open my child that still lives inside me, that lives inside every person. He is just hid in a safe corner. Parents, school and university “did their best” to kill this child, my entity, my essence. Now I want to look at things with my own eyes, now I want to drift to my own nature. . As even a profound and an old wisdom runs as follows: “seek and ye shall find”........

we should give I (you know who) a blog tutorial

ahahaha... damm! even his own password also boleh lupa.

*posted for nothing, wish to be the 1st one. ahahahhaa

To All My Friends

I've created another blog not for me, but for all.
Whoever wish or really want to be part of this Dark Side lemme know...
I'll give you the password so you can manage this blog too and post whatever you want,err...i mean not "that" everything occay.

you can call whatever you want, emo side,meroyan side or room that you can post anything about your dark side or so called, "luahan perasaan".

Make this blog as your own guys...


Peace!